emo + sick... nt a vry good combination...

hiahz....
got flu, headache and sore throat yesterday...
feel like wanna die...
plus i got so many unsolved problems...
realli hard 2 concentrate in school...
den went home, ponteng tuition and slept kos i too tired...
nite went clinic and got meds + mc...

2dae, ponteng sch kos still feelin 2 groggy.....
woke up abt 2 or 3 times in da middle of da nite kos my nose blocked....
when i went bck 2 sleep, still dream abt her...
made me feel even worse whn i woke u everytime...
=(
felt like crying but can't...
cannot even let out my feelings...
how useless...
=(
still, mom woke me up at 9.30am and i had breakfast and meds...
den watched tv awhile and laid on the bed doing nothing da whole day till lunch...
den had meds after lunch and den back to bed....
den suddenly, my mind thought of her again...
start 2 feel sad again...
den the girl whu likes me kept calling me, and i dun wan pick up....
kos i noe i will feel even worse still after talking to her....
until nw i dun wan ans her calls....
dunno if i shud go 2 the youth group also kus i noe i will see her 4 sure de....

if being mature means being emo, den i rather be a childish guy....
being emo sucks, but i just can't help it...