fight...

was in cs yesterday....
went 2 de arcade to play games awhile (even now still exams) after tuition...
was playing with another guy den suddenli de guy kena 1 gang hantam...
dunno wad happen...
scared like crap...
den i dunno waad shud i do...
if i run, sure they chase me and beat because will think i same gang wit him...
if i stay, maybe also kena...
but wad 2 do?
lucky got many ppl, so i just stood there lorh...
dun move, if nt they notice u, den dey beat u...
was so damn scary lorh...
0.o

oh btw, i've decided to try and adopt the i-dun-care mood...
meaning i dun wanna care abt any more problems....
but i still cannot let her go...
she's too nice edi...
sad, but still, stay at friends de level also can larh...
dun wanna care so much edi...
too tired to care abt anythin nowadays...
=.=

another song

songs

just posted some songs...

healing?

finally getting better....
flu going away...
no thanks to the meds frm the clinic...
i got dunno wad medon 500 or sumthin like that frm chinese medicine shops in kl yesterday...
and it works overnight, unlike the clinic medicine, which already nearly finish, but still no use...
anw, was at kl frm friday,
played my cousin's wii...
damn jealous of him lorh, kos he buy da wii and a LCD tv all by himself, wit his gaji of kos...
anw, dats nt y i really went kl...
went becos of my sis's graduation project, a fashion show at the new shopping mall in kl...
my sis's garment was on the papers as well!
whn hv the foto den i post here...
anw, maybe goin bck 2 kl soon, for my sis's graduation ceremony...

emo + sick... nt a vry good combination...

hiahz....
got flu, headache and sore throat yesterday...
feel like wanna die...
plus i got so many unsolved problems...
realli hard 2 concentrate in school...
den went home, ponteng tuition and slept kos i too tired...
nite went clinic and got meds + mc...

2dae, ponteng sch kos still feelin 2 groggy.....
woke up abt 2 or 3 times in da middle of da nite kos my nose blocked....
when i went bck 2 sleep, still dream abt her...
made me feel even worse whn i woke u everytime...
=(
felt like crying but can't...
cannot even let out my feelings...
how useless...
=(
still, mom woke me up at 9.30am and i had breakfast and meds...
den watched tv awhile and laid on the bed doing nothing da whole day till lunch...
den had meds after lunch and den back to bed....
den suddenly, my mind thought of her again...
start 2 feel sad again...
den the girl whu likes me kept calling me, and i dun wan pick up....
kos i noe i will feel even worse still after talking to her....
until nw i dun wan ans her calls....
dunno if i shud go 2 the youth group also kus i noe i will see her 4 sure de....

if being mature means being emo, den i rather be a childish guy....
being emo sucks, but i just can't help it...

emo season?? 0.o

why is not being an emo so hard 2 do....
i can't focus on anything...
getting worse frm day 2 day...
confusing...
anw, 2dae...
nt a vry good day....
went out wit the girl who likes me,
but i din enjoy...
kos i've found me asking myself,
do i really wanna get together wit her?
i dun even noe anything abt her...
onli thing we hv in common is our birthdates....
den da rest, go figure...
really saddening....
dun even noe why she likes me...
0.o

why can't i 4get u...
i can't focus on the stuff which is more important kuz of u...
why??
i noe, i'm nt ur choice,
but i can't help myself...
i can't bring myself 2 4get u...
because ur a great friend 2 hv...
haihz....

some1 pls save me...

T_T

emo for the first time in my whole life.....

dunno why these few days,
i feel quite sad larh...
not much energy, mood, rush, cheerfulness, joy, wadeva like last time...
like i've changed into something else...
i dun even noe myself anymore...

kinda given up on romance larh...
i'm a hopeless case...
the girl i like, dunno if she willbe like the others who rejected me b4...
another girl who likes me, dunno if i shud like her bck becos not much feelings for her....

i'm losing my feel in video games, studies and even basketball...
feeling 2 much miserable 2 enjoy i guess...
i dun even crack as much lame jokes as i used 2...

now i noe, wad an emo feels like...
and how difficult i is not 2 be 1....
realli wished dis nvr happenned...
kos i'm suffering mentally...
can't even think straight nowadays....

help me*

T.T